She was & still is very outspoken. Her mind has no filter and it will get you when you least expect it lol!!!!
I started thinking about meds but was still hesitant. I knew how other kids had been done & didn't want that for her. I've seen so many that look like & act like zombies. But when your child is ALWAYS on RED & hardly ever gets to go to recess you feel helpless in a way. She already could care less about school in the 1st grade. That should not happen. 2nd grade came and the grades started going down some. But thankfully she had a teacher that took time with her and tried to help her when she would get distracted. Kaylee still runs and hugs her when she sees her. She was very upset when she left and it showed in her work and attitude..
I had been praying and praying that God would just heal her from this and not let her keep going through all this and just couldn't understand why. Then I had a real smart guy tell me, God can heal her. he is powerful enough to, but He also makes people smart enough to become doctors to help those that need it. He wouldn't have put them here if they weren't needed. Finally summer came & Kaylee was ready. I took her to Connections in Hattiesburg that summer. They have been so good to Kaylee. They deal with all kinds of things that children may be going through. They are awesome. They have shown so much attention to her. Made her feel special and not like the odd man out.
Past decisions made me feel these were my consequences for it. This was my punishment. But soon I let that go. I couldn't feel that way. She can't help it and no matter what she just had to know that she had a mother that was going to be there for her and fight for her. That summer was such as eye opener for the both of us. Both of us were let known that they would always be behind us and over the years they have proven that.
I want to let people know that ADHD is nothing to laugh at or think its not something real. It hurts children everyday. Mostly mentally but it can physically. This is a real disability. It keeps them from learning, from being socially accepted & kills their self-esteem. Most people just see it as thats just a bad kid- that kid doesn't fit the normal mold of a child I want to teach. That kid is weird, she's different, I don't want to be her friend or play with her. People do feel this way and its sad to know that alot of it comes from adults.
It's been a long ride since that summer. Lots of medicine changes but always by small amounts to keep her safe. She is their first priority. AND THEY SHOW HER THAT!!! Some teachers help & some don't. I've come to realize that all teachers don't feel the same way about kids & teaching. But I'm proud to know the ones that have helped Kaylee & I.
The biggest thing tho is that Kaylee sees me working hard for her, being there for her, showing how much I love her. Praying for her and letting her hear those prayers. Because when your child cries her heart out & say's mama I just want to be normal, you do everything you can for her. Her doctors help that, but God and my prayers and prayers of others are her biggest help. Without Him we would be nowhere. I know God hears me now by the changes in her that I've prayed for, for her. She's maturing & things are getting better. We'll always have a rough spot but I know we will make it through. We are well able to overcome with God. Only one set of footprints for us because He is carrying us through it all
God you know that if only one!!!!
God Bless and be safe!!!
